Egor Gordeev, host of “Breakfast with 1 + 1”, has already prepared a glass from which he will drink on the day of the victory of Ukraine! He does not want to guess the date, but, like many in the country, they believe that it is close. With the beginning of a full-scale invasion, Yegor did not stop working and volunteering at the same time. In mid-October, he survived a kamikaze drone attack on his home in Kyiv. He says that he has ceased to be afraid, and left the solution of psychological problems in peacetime.
In an exclusive interview with FACTS, the host of 1 + 1 Ukraine spoke about his work as a waiter, the fear he experienced and falling in love during the war.
“We worked as waiters, removed the snow, prepared khachapuri. This is how we raised funds for rehabilitation equipment for children.”
- Egor, how have you changed during this year of the Great War?
“I don’t even remember what I was like a year ago. Now, before February 24, I recalled from some of my notebooks and photographs what I thought about, at what point I was then. We have all learned to live mobile, to think more about today than tomorrow. This spring of nerves does not let go of us so much that we do not even know what state we are in now. Previously, I could clearly understand what my attitude to specific things was. Now this is not the case, the locator has changed. I can not immediately highlight my emotions, the reality of feelings. This is war - it aggravates everything.
Life has changed terribly. Relatively speaking, more free time, but less energy. And the result is the same formula. I began to travel less, but travel more in Ukraine. And on business trips abroad, you feel terribly depressed. I have completely changed my lifestyle. This is a completely different perception of yourself, the world. The proportion of what and how I spend money has changed. Much goes to the aid of the Armed Forces of Ukraine and the support of ordinary Ukrainians. In December we went with Nelya Shovkoplyas (host of Breakfast with 1 + 1. - Auth.) to Lviv. We worked as waiters, removed the snow, prepared khachapuri. So they raised funds for rehabilitation equipment for children in the Lviv hospital of St. Nicholas.
“War is a constant danger, a challenge to oneself. When is it especially scary?
- Yes, it’s not scary. When your adrenaline rushes all the time, you more or less get used to it. We have already passed all these milestones, when now it will be scary. I think this applies to both those who are “at zero” and those who are behind. Except for specific threats to life. I remember going on a business trip to Brussels when the first blackouts started. And it was there that I really got scared of what was happening in Ukraine at that moment. That is, I understand with my head how all this is happening here, but, being abroad, I subconsciously thought: “Well, that’s it, this is the end, now there will be no light, there will be no heat.”
Our guest at “Breakfast” was military correspondent Natalya Nagornaya. She was helped to find strength by a psychologist who said: “It’s easier for you than for everyone else. Even easier for the belligerents. Because you are a daily witness of how victory approaches. You see it, you feel it.” Everyone in Ukraine is a witness to the war in one way or another. It is easier for them than for those who are somewhere far away. Now this fear is measured by approaching where there is war.
- It is known that a drone got into your house in the fall. How did you get through it?
“At first it was, of course, scary. All these emotions were transmitted like a virus from neighbors. And then - the usual routine of worries. I even went to bed that very night in my apartment. Well, what to do? The only thing that was cold was because the windows were broken. On the same day, even before one in the morning there was an alarm, so my neighbors and I were sitting on the minus first floor, in the parking lot. But it’s also not a real shelter. We sat, remembered the deceased Vika, the sommelier girl who lived in the house that was destroyed by the drone, and dispersed. I know that some neighbors left the country after that, but a few months later they returned again.
Has the apartment been cleaned up yet?
— Yes, I installed the windows almost immediately, after 2-3 days, and repaired the roof on the terrace a bit. Hope it doesn’t fly again.
“Mom constantly lives outside the city and survived all the arrivals, offensive threats since February 24, 2022”
- They say that the traumas of the war, including emotional ones, will “come out” after it is over.
“Everyone will deal with himself after the war. We fix something for ourselves, but still in the process.
Have you had to cry this year?
- Yes, it was more connected with some sentimental memories of specific people, and not because of general impressions. It was the same with me before the war. When I take a close look at a person I know well, I become terribly sentimental.
- What do you especially regret from your peaceful life?
- About many things. Mainly about freedom of movement. Since the time of the flood, I still cannot fully realize the moment that I cannot now take tickets and leave somewhere. Not because I want to run away. The very fact that I can’t do it easily. This was my basic story for the great war and kovyd. And everything else somehow adapt.
- In the social network, you often fast walking through the woods with a dog. Trying to beat depression?
“It’s more like a visit to my mother. I rarely see or hear from her. It’s also a cool moment to switch off for a while. Mom constantly lives outside the city and survived all the arrivals, offensive threats from February 24, 2022. Mom has a very cozy building, everyone around calls it an art object. It’s an old wooden house, but my mother redid everything inside. Her friends come there like a museum, just to see what and how she did there. I come there, walk in the forest, listen to the birds singing and switch. Walking a lot is a universal vacation tip.
- How did your mother survive the threat of attack?
- I wanted to send her abroad, but she was categorically against it. Mom is a fighter. When it was the hardest time near Kiev in March, she had a clear routine - first she went to the forest, then, together with her neighbors, cooked food for the terrorist defense and wove nets. She hid with her neighbors in our basement, which she arranged very comfortably. I took my cat and dog with me.
“This year, Ukrainians have had many divorces and weddings, because, as it turned out, the war is a strong stimulus.
There were more divorces among my environment. I even have friends who got married and divorced this year. It’s all from the nerves - you can’t understand where you are and what. A lot of chaotic movements in this sense. Agreed, separated. But if at least a little it became better for people from this, so be it.
Has anything changed in your personal life?
- Serious - no. I, too, shake like most. I have a very fast psyche in this sense, I quickly grind everything. Flashed - moved on. I understand that these emotions are situational. Over the past year, I have not fallen in love, but there was such a “strong outbreak.” It was also a kind of therapy for me.
- Did you think where and how you will meet our victory?
“I don’t think about it, I live for today. If you think about winning all the time, you can go crazy. Although I have a special glass that I will raise to our victory. But how, what, where, when, with whom I don’t even think. Because it may be so sudden or so long…
Earlier, the TV presenter spoke about his childhood psychological trauma.
See also: “The rocket exploded near my parents’ house”: Timur Miroshnichenko about his aggression and big changes in life
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